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Friday, November 18, 2011

On Being Thankful!

When you meet someone, who by a simple glint in his eye and a smile on his face, can light your world! Your heart does its own little dance and you just know this is where you were meant to be, with this Man, this Master, the one who turns your world into a beautiful and wonderful place with each breathe you breath... You know you are owned, you are loved.....

In 1998, at age 37 I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. The news was devastating to say the least, I was a single mom with a 10 yr old son. To say it changed my life is putting it rather mildly. For 3 years I underwent countless surgeries and treatments. Throughout which time i continued to work and raise my son, all basically alone!

I remember hitting the 5 year mark, a major milestone, then the 10 year mark, another major one!

However, I have always remained very vigilant about changes with my body, I am quite aware of the fact that I am what is considered "high risk".

Recently the results of a blood test came back with positive markers for another type of cancer, ovarian!

And here I go again...

Only this time, things are a bit different! My son is grown and fully capable of living his life without the watchful eye of Mommy hovering over him.

And this time, oh God this time, I am not alone!

The comfort in knowing that I am not slaying this dragon alone (this time) is huge!

Sometimes the exactly right people come into our lives at exactly the right time and this is one of those times!

I have a wonderful Master who is standing by me, holding me up, giving me strength to face this, almost overly eager to take care of his lil slut ... He is truly a gift in my life!

Thank you my Love, my Life....


  1. I am so very sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I am very happy to hear that you have someone wonderful to hold you tight and be with you.

    Prayers, energy, wishes, hopes...all for you.
    You are an amazing and loving person.


  2. My thoughts and prayers are with you, and we will hope for the best. I'm glad you have someone special to be by your side, hold your hand, and help you through this. Not only can this be tough physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. Use him and lean on him...that's what he is there for. I wish you all the best!


  3. you know what I am thinking. All love laughter and light during this journey for you your love and your son.
    It is a piece of shit that we both survived once with our small boys. Its just not fair to have to face it again. There is nothing I can say to make it better. All my love for you. You are an amazing woman, you always have been.

    xx L

  4. Thank you Dannah for your kind words and thoughts!

    DV... Yes believe me, i will be leaning heavily on him, i will just have to find a way to make it up to him later : )

    lil... Yes ... You do know what this path looks like! So much is within ourselves. Staying strong and staying positive is always the best route, just wish there weren't so many damn speed bumps in the road! : )

  5. I just started following your blog. I'm sorry to read of your diagnosis. Sending lots of positive thoughts and prayers your way. I'm glad you are not going through this alone.

    Take care. Any

  6. I fucking HATE cancer! I have been lucky enough to escape it so far, but my Mom is battling it for the second time as well! You are incredibly strong, and knowledgeable about what you're facing... you're gonna kick it's ass! In the meantime, know that there are many of us in your corner. I am glad you're back and hope you continue to post so we may continue to root for you!


  7. Thank you Sky!

    SBS, sorry about your Mom, just stay positive for her...And yes i do know here in blogger land, we are like a family, all wishing only the best for each other! Since i will be laid up for at least 6 weeks, i hopefully will find more time to write!
    Always a positive side : )

  8. My thoughts are with you. You strike me as a pretty tough cookie so I actually feel sorry to the cancer!

    Take care of yourself and it's nice that you have a partner to stand by you. I'm sure that helps loads.

  9. Best of luck to you. I am glad that you found someone who will weather the storm with you.

  10. Yeah Baby girl you got that right! : ) Thank you!

    Lil,.... he is determined to fight this too, so I am certain I am in good hands! Thank you!

  11. Histoy, I just caught up and sending healing thoughts to you. We all know subs are actually some of the strongest fighters out there <3



  12. Thank you K! Yes you are correct we are some of the toughest souls out there : )

  13. i am so sorry to hear all that you have been and will be going through.

    my thoughts are with you

    blossom xx