Creating His....

Well with my nice peaceful mindset today...

I keep wandering off.

Thinking...

(i know... dangerous)

But just thinking...

what it would be like...

To be owned.

To be "His Toy"...

Ah but i am already

"His Toy"...

Of course the "His" part is still the elusive mystery...

So that just leaves the "Toy"

But of course, toys can dream...

They can imagine all sorts of fun, creative, erotic, sweet and completely

nasty trouble to get themselves into...

And i must admit, i am fairly accomplished at that.

Especially when the mind is free, and happy, and feeling oh so playful.

Like today...

Today, the "His" factor

can be anyone the toy wants him to be...

Doing all those things

the toys mind envisions...

And just maybe...

When it is no longer just a dream...

when reality comes to play..

The "His" of her dreams

And the "His" of reality

will be...

one and the same...

Just playing with His Toy...

adjusting the sails...

It is so delightful to peruse through the many blogs on D/s and feel the many different perspective defined throughout each.

Some of those touch me each and every time i read their words, they just have a way to reach inside and hold my heart.

And often with those words, i am taken away into another place.

They have a way of instilling a peacefulness inside, of helping me to re focus on what it is that i need in my life, of helping me to calm the fears of the unknowing of what hopefully may lay ahead for me someday.

And i find hope, i find serenity and even a sense of simplicity.

Through their words i see the other side, the freedom, the beauty, the completeness that they have found in their lives.

With that, i once again, find clarity.

I know my needs...

And although there are times they become distorted, or oblique, i trudge through, i refine that vision, i adjust the course and eventually i find my way back.

And now....

my sails are set, the course defined....

Balance

Closing my eyes and...

clicking my heels three times.....

It has been a rough couple of days.

And just like every other single submissive blogging woman,

i need a good healthy dose

of refocusing.

Just to find my balance.

Or as thesubmissivebf   calls it...

Maintenance.

And maybe this week end at the munch....

I will play....

I will take the "shy girl" public

and just do a little "maintenance"...

Not sure i can...

Not certain i will...

But i am "toying" with the offer...