The 7 day test...

I have been a good girl all week!

Yep, i have!

And there is a reason....

A huge test is on the horizon!

Seven days alone with MPH!

I am a bundle of excitement and of fear....

Fear of so much sex, um not just sex, MPH sex....

Hot, intense, raw passionate sex...

With the distance between us, we do not always have much time together.

Usually it is just a few days.

But he always leaves me knowing he has used me well.

Subtle little reminders, a mark here and there, a sore body part here and always there!

Plus, he has assigned me a "packing list"!

Restraints, rope, gag, plugs including the two that just make me wince upon sight...

And then of course a slut outfit, including a pair of 6" Fuck me shoes,

you know the ones...

they look so good, just don't expect me to walk in them...

Yes, fear and excitement!

But even though the blog may be a bit quiet, rest assured, the toy will not be...

She will be screaming and growling and purring and laughing and crying and most

certainly,....

she will be begging and pleading...

And hopefully

he will remember what a sweet little slave i have been all week...

smiles...

Dreams are good to have aren't they?

Holding my breath.....

Fear....

It can hold us tight in its grip.

It has the potential to change us, mold us to its liking.

For me, i try to resist most fears, or to face them head on...

Sometimes it works but sometimes it doesn't!

Spiders, snakes and apparently frogs....

Well, not much i can do about those fears!

But other ones, become fears because they are the unknown...

And those i tend to face!

I learn all i can in my attempt to confront them.

When MPH and i initially began speaking, it became quite clear that
breath control was something he rather enjoyed.

For me, i had no experience with it, so it became the unknown, a fear...

Part of this "letting go" is placing my trust in Him, trusting that he will not allow harm to come any where near His toy...

He began slowly....

Gripping my throat tightly, then release....

Then again, a bit longer, release...

The look on his face as he controlled what breath i took, or didn't take....

Yes he enjoys this....

It was obvious!

And with that look, the one that made his eyes sparkle, i felt no fear...

i surrendered my air to him...

his Dominance reinforced,

my submission intensified

The unknown confronted...

The fear, gone!