Test Drive part 2

In a lifestyle built around honesty, the importance of opening oneself up, letting someone in, giving them a view to the true soul inside, can never be down played.

He sat there in the chair, fully clothed, while i was naked at his feet. Most men,
would be not be spending this time talking, opening their soul... But he did.
Telling me of some of the experiences in his life that have shaped him, not things easily spoken of. At times bringing me to laughter, and other times, not so much.
He would stop intermittently to insure i was comfortable, or maybe to kiss me, or run his hand through my hair.

There was no "rushed" feeling, just an easiness. And as i looked up at him, i felt a sense of his need. His needs are not based solely on his cock, it goes much deeper than that. He refers to it as his "Jimmy". The person who through thick and thin, has his back. A concept i too understand.

As he spoke of his life, i felt such a sense of closeness to him. This beautiful Man before me, was not just offering me his Cock, but his heart as well. On this test drive, he was showing me his engine, teaching me how it runs, walking me through the owners manual.

I felt honored! He is not your "typical" Dominant. He makes no demands... "you must call me Sir or Master", no that is not his style. He is very much his own Man. His concerns are not in what "others" think or say... yet his concern about what i thought, or what i felt were very apparent. He needed me to know him, to feel safe, to trust that his intentions were sincere. To know he is not viewing this as a "fix" for today...

And as i listened to him, i felt drawn to him, drawn to his heart, his mind and yes to his cock, that need of his, that so touched that need of mine...

So this Master of mine has left me with a dilemma. My blog... The Empty Collar!
Just what do i do? I guess a revamping of sorts is in order! Yes a problem i welcome with open arms....

The Test Drive...

So the plan was made... i would go there and spend 24 hours as his, just to see what life with him would be like. I was free to leave at anytime... If at the end of the time there, we both agreed we would move forward.... Or not!

And as you all know from my last post... the girl was definitely "smitten"... driving there with hopes and anticipation.... Talking with him most of the way, feeling really good about everything.....

And now the details..... (well some of them at least... the basics)

First thing he does, is puts a collar on me... just as a reminder, oops maybe it was the second, i think he had me get undressed first and stand there completely naked, as he looked me up and down smiling that devious smile of his...
then i think was the collar... ya know my mind was moving in a million different directions and well i wasn't actually taking notes, so i may not have everything in proper order...

but after that we sat and talked for what seemed like an hour maybe more... he told me a lot about who he is as a Man... giving me that glimpse into the Man before me... and i loved it.... He is a bit of a former bad boy in his youth, but one with a tremendous amount of strength and determination, he has over come a lot of roadblocks, qualities i so admire and respect...

This man who tells me he is not really a Sadist... yes is indeed a Sadist, but ... he is not what i would say is a typical Sadist.. he is a very sensuous Sadist.
Just a man and his toy... and play with his toy he did! For hours upon hours... Carefully noticing my reactions, always insuring i was feeling safe. Stopping only to feed his toy.. which he did rather nicely, placing the food in her mouth piece by piece, showering his toy, drying her off, making her laugh, making her scream, growl and purr, but through out... his care, his concern always at the fore front.

And in the morning, when i woke up in his arms, i knew this is exactly the place i needed to be, with the Man i needed to belong to... i just knew it! No questions, no qualms...

We are two very similar souls, seeking the same things in life...With him i felt safe, i felt cared for, i felt adored and i felt owned...

This "Him"....

ohhhhh Yes it is Tuesday....

And in just a few hours i will be there

with "Him"...

I have been writing this blog for basically 6 months now

and always when describing the "one" it was just a "Him"

Knowing those things that i was searching for in a "Him"

But never really knowing who that "Him" may be...

And although in my mind i have ideas of what that "Him"

would be like...

This "Him" is so much more...

Things like his scent....

i never thought about that

but his scent...

Drives me wild...

He writes to me a lot...

opening up his soul,

allowing me a view....

i had never considered the importance of that...

or the effect that would have on me.

i knew the "Him" would need to have a rather intense mind...

But this "Him" pushes that beyond.

But what really does it for me...

is how this "Him" makes me feel inside.

i always knew the significance of that

but really had no idea what it would actually feel like...

i knew what it felt like before...

but that was different...

a different him...

a different time...

a different me.

But today i know!

And it feels...

well

fucking awesome...