Right here....

Dreams do not come true.....

I thought they did

But I was wrong!

So.... what now?

I am taking a step back....

way back.

My focus is not on dreams of the past,

Really not on dreams at all.

My focus is in putting one foot in front of the other,

of trying to moving forward,

or at least, of living in the present...

of not looking back with all the "what ifs"

nor are they in the "next time" gallery.

They reside in nothing more than the moment,

the right here, right now.

And for right here, right now

I say good bye to histoy....

May she rest in peace!

Life in histoy land....

I know....

Everyone is in the dark....

Whats going on?

Why are things so very very quiet in histoy land?

As it always has, my writing mirrors the things in my life.

And to a degree, life too has been running in a bit of a holding pattern!

I am still very much in love,

my health is excellent,

my job blows...

Not much has really changed!

But rest assured my good friends, life is good in Histoy Land!

And I promise, when the plane lands, I will write again....

Dreams do come true....

It is truly amazing the changes our lives can experience in a very short period of time!

When I started my blog last year, I was in the midst of searching for a very special Man! Shuffling through the profiles on CM, FL and even Alt.com, hoping he was there.... somewhere in all that mess.

And as you all know, for a very long time I was only finding the frogs, some frogs were better than others, but they were none the less, not MY "Prince"!

When I met MPH for the first time, I felt something very special with him! I knew this one was different! My insides turned to putty.... I was his and I knew it!

That was six months ago...

And with time, the reality that we just "fit" became even more clear!

There were obstacles, minor, but they were there!

For the past 3 months he has worked extremely hard to show me that he is here for the long run, he cleared whatever obstacles were in our path, and has truly made "us" his focus!

He has shown me how very capable he is of being the Man, the Master I truly needed in my life! He has really stepped up to the plate!

On Thanksgiving morning, he told me to have a seat, he had something he needed to discuss with me. He got down on his knee .... and ... well ... he threw me for a loop... He asked me to marry him, to make our commitment to each other "complete" in every sense of the word!

To say I am elated, doesn't quite express the happiness i feel! Its so beyond that!

The ring... well it is just beautiful! It is him, My Perfect Him!

But first, we have this minor battle to fight, however, when that is behind us, when I can once again feel like his perfect lil princess whore, then we can make it official!

It is the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow... The perfect pot of gold!