On Being Thankful!

When you meet someone, who by a simple glint in his eye and a smile on his face, can light your world! Your heart does its own little dance and you just know this is where you were meant to be, with this Man, this Master, the one who turns your world into a beautiful and wonderful place with each breathe you breath... You know you are owned, you are loved.....

In 1998, at age 37 I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. The news was devastating to say the least, I was a single mom with a 10 yr old son. To say it changed my life is putting it rather mildly. For 3 years I underwent countless surgeries and treatments. Throughout which time i continued to work and raise my son, all basically alone!

I remember hitting the 5 year mark, a major milestone, then the 10 year mark, another major one!

However, I have always remained very vigilant about changes with my body, I am quite aware of the fact that I am what is considered "high risk".

Recently the results of a blood test came back with positive markers for another type of cancer, ovarian!

And here I go again...

Only this time, things are a bit different! My son is grown and fully capable of living his life without the watchful eye of Mommy hovering over him.

And this time, oh God this time, I am not alone!

The comfort in knowing that I am not slaying this dragon alone (this time) is huge!

Sometimes the exactly right people come into our lives at exactly the right time and this is one of those times!

I have a wonderful Master who is standing by me, holding me up, giving me strength to face this, almost overly eager to take care of his lil slut ... He is truly a gift in my life!

Thank you my Love, my Life....

Reaping the benefits....

It is hard to believe i have survived without writing a blog! And really it is not that i haven't had anything to say.... It is simply that my life, well, has been a bit complicated!

Not in a bad way by any means... But just complicated!

i needed time, time for me... Time to collect and sort my thoughts, to breath! Kind of like a time out. And sometimes stepping back, gives us a better perspective. Not one filled with regrets, but of lessons...

And ooooo the lessons i have learned! Each one has in one way or another, delivered me to where i am today... And today, i am happy, i am content.... Overflowing with optimism and excitement... Very much alive and well!

A New Direction....

Life has been rather hectic lately! Family issues have kept me busy, not to mention work....

A million other things have been racing through my mind, about the direction i am taking with my life, my priorities, and exactly what those need to be right now!

My blog has always been something i have written for me to sort things, to put them out there and see what advice others may offer, or simply to help another who is going through some of the issues i have. I have enjoyed writing my blog. I have acquired some wonderful friendships that i would not have otherwise had.

And i have at times felt obliged to write, almost as a necessity, as a form of communicating that "yes i am fine."

But now, i need to pull back from writing, to make it less of a priority! Direct my focus elsewhere....

I will still write, but likely on a less personal front, and certainly not as often!

I will still read and comment, i couldn't survive without knowing what is happening in everyone elses life.

So, no worries my friends, the toy will be fine, and lurking amongst the shadows!

In Closing i leave you with this:

May your heart be light and happy,
May your smile be big and wide,
And may your pockets always have
a coin or two inside!