Never stop dreaming....

My vacation is over, Master has returned to his home, and life is right where i left it a week ago.

Except...

I feel good! Like really good... about him, about us, about life...

There is just a wave of silly happiness around me and i am soaking it all up!

Seven days with him and i didn't get bored or antsy or agitated, i had no desire to flee, to get far away from him. Just perfectly happy with his arms around me, keeping me safe and secure, or watching him from across the room as his focus was directed to something other than his toy, or simply at his feet watching his eyes smile as he planned his next onslaught of his toy...

That in itself is something i thought i would never find.... I was wrong, very wrong....

And as i was catching up in Blogland, i read about the week that   SBF  had and her wannabee suitors on CM, and i am so thankful that those days are far far behind me.  But remember, MPH and i would not have met had it not been for CM, so somewhere in that whole mess of wannabees or couldabeens, there may just be the "One" who can sweep you off your feet, and offer you everything in life you have ever dared to dream of...

Just don't stop dreaming....

Cuz ya know, they do come true....

oh those bullies...

those demanding ones....

Sheesh....

When will they ever learn.

i am not seeking a Man who will simply Bark orders...

and then finish his sentence with "understand slut"

Yes i do understand...

i understand you have no clue

about what being a Master is really all about.

It is not about your ability to yell the loudest,

or the most often

It is about your ability to NOT yell at all...

to get exactly what you wish for by using your brain

and not your vocal chords.

And i wonder....

does this method of theirs

ever really work?

Are there women who drop to their knees

simply because he barks the order?

If one feels the need to demand respect,

then he certainly has not earned it.

And the ones who say "you will only address me as Sir...."

i think they have read too many Gor novels...

And not to say there is anything wrong with the Gor Novels...

i have read quite a few

But they are fantasy...

And when one confuses reality with fantasy...

well there are places you can go

where they will assist you in outlining the differences...

And sweet little pills they can give you

So you can more easily define the distinction.

But for this one....

a bully is a bully

and a Master is not a bully...

My CM rant....

One of the many typical conversations on CM:

His message: Lovely Legs

my response: Thank you

His message: what are you seeking here?

I'll be back in 2 hours

my response: Well hopefully you are not asking me to write for 2 hours : )

What i am seeking.... I am seeking a capable and worthy
Dominant Man who is aware of his needs, and is fully
capable of putting forth the effort to insure his needs are met,
and in doing so, meet the needs that i possess...
i guess that is it in a nutshell!

His message: mmmm sounds delic, do you enjoy being tied up?


This is my issue, first and foremost i have a profile.

And on that profile i clearly state what i am seeking.

So that leaves two scenarios:

1. He didn't read my profile

or

2. He is not clear on what that profile says.

My guess is number one.

And next, his response to what i am seeking....

Did he even read that?

ugh.....

It can be so very frustrating.

I do say i want someone intelligent on my profile,

but then if they don't read it, they wouldn't know that.

Now multiply that by 25,

because that is how many messages i got yesterday.

Granted they were not all quite that bad,

and many i did not take the time to respond back,

because typically they are overseas,

or worse have not written anything in their profile.

So why is it so difficult to stay sane, to stay centered,

to meet the "one"....

I guess that explains it....