In reading the various blogs, there are many that live in 24/7 situations.
That is the ultimate goal for me.
But i cannot help but question myself.
Am i capable?
Often things look so good from the outside, and then once inside, it is not at all
as it appeared.
I worry about that.
I have never lived in a 24/7, as a matter of fact i have lived on my own for 22 years, doing things basically my way.
In my previous D/s relationship when i was at his house, it was his way.
I was always fine with that.
But then when i would return home, the D/s ended, and it was back to my way.
And i always knew in the back of my mind, i would be returning to "my way" shortly.
There was no structure, no routines other than those i had for myself.
But i wonder, can i adjust?
Can i fully let go of "my way"?
And maybe i am putting the cart before the horse so to speak.
I do have a tendency to "over think" just about everything in my life.
Maybe it will just flow naturally...
I do not question my desire...
but my ability.
Insecurities are never fun.
I do have tremendous sympathy for who ever he is...
He is definitely going to have his hands full with this one.