Feeling Control...
Craving Control....
They do tend to go hand in hand.
The more i feel it, the more i crave it.
Chocolate for the soul.
Yes i am a control freak....
haha but not the one in control.
i want nothing to do with that.
i want to feel the control, the focus...
It is the drug.
But not one administered lightly.
i do fight it
the walls stand strong
until suddenly without notice...
they start to cave.
And i stand there
naked and needing.
But oh so very content...
Surreal and serene, it is a world like no other.
It is a release, a freedom,
a lightness of being...
Letting go...
No worries, no stress
But so alive
and so at peace...
So happy!!
ReplyDeleteLOL - never thought of it as 'Chocolate for the soul" before :) Sweet surrender indeed
ReplyDeleteVery good description of your feelings. I love that video. "Handcuffs", so delicious.
ReplyDeleteah Thank you! i was beginning to worry no one noticed the video... i thought it was very appropriate for the message >smiles<
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