lost...

A crazy few days to say the least.

And through all the craziness,

all the bumps in the road,

i am reminded once again

of how very much i detest being

a Masterless submissive...

There are times when friends and family

just cannot fill the void that HE can.

And as tough and strong as i think i am,

certain things come up to just slap me back to reality

i am not so tough.....

i am not "that" strong...

that i can just go through life "handling" everything

all the time

with ease and control...

i miss having that "Master" so very much

and although he didn't always have the answers

or the quick remedies

i always knew

he was always there...

And that i was not alone...

i so miss that...