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Thursday, May 19, 2011

Lurking behind the shadows...

Things have been rather dull lately...

i have had no one pulling strings

no mind fuck...

and i miss that.

it sends my mind in a different direction

One of thought provoking

sexually charged

highly erotic

fantasy.

The mental aspect of this lifestyle is key for me.

without it,

It is almost a vanilla existence.

There are things i can do,

peruse the blogs...

read some hot steamy erotic literature...

surf through pictures...

just lurking through the internet...

But its not the same

as maybe a task...

to feel the "power"

the control...

So out of boredom

i went on a nilla date last night.

Nothing major...

a time filler of sorts...

and i will go out with him again.

And in the back of my mind i will be thinking...

please when you kiss me...

grab a handful of my hair...

pull me close...

let me feel it....

that power, that control

that want, that need...

pull that lil girl out...

But am i just setting myself up?

Who knows....

Maybe deep inside him there is a Dom...

Just hoping to find that lil girl...

time will tell...

7 comments:

  1. Yes the respectful vanilla guys, just not the same.

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  2. You never know..

    Have fun!

    K

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  3. I wonder what you would find if you scratched the surface of most 'vanilla guys'. I must admit that I am a respectful vanilla guy to the outside world and, if I was on a date, I wouldn't grab a bunch of the ladies hair while crushing her lips, however much I wanted to, for fear of scaring her off! Lets hope for hidden depths of depraved sexuality within your unscratched 'nillas' Histoy. :)

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  4. ohhhh Clive... i am soooo with you on that! :)

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  5. Could be...and I hope it is! abby

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  6. You and I are living parallel lives, aren't we? I'm about to do some vanilla dating too, I think. Sheesh. Yeah, hoping for the secret Dom.

    I will say, I met my first real "Dom" on a vanilla site. So, yeah, hope springs eternal.

    aisha

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  7. Yes Aisha, we do seem to...

    And if he isn't A Dom, so what, maybe he will just be a nice human being, and i will enjoy that all by itself.

    No expectations... just relax and enjoy...

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