I can feel within me some changes.
I would never say the words fuck or slut or, heaven forbid, cunt.
But now they just roll off my tongue quite unconsciously.
Am i becoming a bad girl?
I always thought i was a bad girl, deep inside, all those kinky erotic thoughts all the time.
So maybe i am becoming a badder bad girl.
The inhibitions become fewer, the desire to show "who i am" stronger.
The need to pursue what i want in my life has become almost insatiable.
And i am okay with that.
The acceptance that maybe i am not "normal" in the vanilla world is one i relish.
I have no desire to be normal.
I view normal everyday, and i love being different than that.
I love that the people reading this, understand it.
Maybe once in a while, it will generate a wisp of a smile because they have felt that too.
And they know, just as i do, that they are in some pretty cool company.